“I thought we were past all that” was my husband’s sarcastic response when I reminded him of my appointment in Iowa City. I simply smiled, well, maybe I rolled my eyes at him then just walked away. It had only been three months since my last doctor appointment in Iowa City and five months since my last angioplasty to open my stents…but it had felt like a lifetime.
I headed to my appointment for scans and was prepared to have the doctor schedule a procedure. While sitting in the waiting room, a regular nurse of mine came out and said “Hey! There’s my patient who wrote the book” and took me back to get prepped for my CTA scan.
I was then sent back out to the waiting room in my gown and IV…
I did the fabulous scans with contrast that makes your body feel extremely hot then I was sent over to discuss the results with my doctor.
As expected, my stents were narrowing but I explained that while I was experiencing the sharp chest pain, fatigue, foggy memory and shortness of breath, I did not feel my symptoms were to the point of needing immediate intervention. I then joked saying that while I like seeing him, I was really hoping to hit that one year mark of no angioplasty! The doctor smiled and agreed that my scans did show that I still have some blood flow and since I had not reported any significant changes in my symptoms, he was fine with waiting to do another scan in three months and then possibly intervene at that time.
I was beyond ecstatic as I called Tim to tell him the good news even though he doubted if I was telling him the truth. I did confess that oxygen was brought up again and the doctor did say eventually we would need to do something about my jugular veins which are 100% and 50% blocked.
I hung up with Tim and thought about that word “eventually” when the doctor had said it. For a split second my heart had dropped. “Eventually” meant that I would someday need more stents so it wasn’t a matter of maybe, it was a matter of when. Then I thought of my husband’s remark knowing he too is fully aware….we will never be past this! It will always be.
I turned my radio on and pushed that word to the back of my mind. Why was I even worrying about it? It’s not like we don’t know the routine by now! But…God has been, is and will continue to be faithful so there is no need to worry about what doctors say “eventually” is to come!
I was blessed to finish out the week by having a Mom’s morning with Asher at his school…
I am extremely grateful for the health I have right now but regardless of whatever my test results might bring, I will continue to find joy in the every day ordinary moments because God has been, is and will continue to be good!