This morning I had my MRI and while it was extremely challenging being on a flat hard table for 41 minutes in the condition my back/leg are in…I made it through.

I have never experienced this amount…or this type of excruciating pain…and I’ve dealt with tremendous amounts of pain over my lifetime. I am not able to take more than maybe 10 steps, yet now crawling is even unbearable. It is simply indescribable. I was hopeful that a radiologist would be at the hospital today to read my scans, however, I have yet to get a phone call so maybe tomorrow!   Until then, I have been reading books to distract myself and to make time go by. I have continued to bed hop from Leah’s room, to Nathan’s room and to the quiet room but regardless, I can’t get comfortable anywhere I go and with such limited mobility now, I have resorted back to my little “nest” on the floor in our bedroom…closest to the bathroom too!!

Once settled back in my spot, I had to wipe the uncontrolled tears that now come on demand at any slight movement I make. Finally on my back my eyes reverted up to the ceiling…and I saw this…  

So much for wiping my tears!! I called Tim barely able to talk and he explained first that it was permanent marker! Haha!

He went on to explain his reasoning for the writing which was so much more than I ever imagined. On the way to chores tonight he heard this…

I am now going to go listen to this song, my new favorite by the way, and stare at those words on the ceiling until I fall asleep. Our God is so good and how blessed and extremely thankful I am that God chose Tim to be walking this journey with me! 

Tonight God gave me a glimpse of what amazing and beautiful things He can do through our pain…